haizya

Today i saw him at indoor...
at first he ask me got go indoor or not,
i say maybe cause i want find my brother...
then after that...
after i work i go for find my bro,
i msg back him..
tell her whether i am in indoor now..
then he ask me whther want meet or not...

i want to see him,
but i don't want he see me....
cause i am not really okay now...
My stomach so pain & something shock me...
I go inside indoor for a while...
then when i recieve my bro fon,
wake up want go out...
i see nothing but my eye was open...
t_____t
This really scare me...
I am so scare now...

& after a few second it become normal..
i say want meet he don't want anymore...
he was with his friends...
=X
sad...but what i can do?
i think so long whether want meet him or not;...
but when i decide...
he don't want anymore...


BUt before i go home,
i go front door there...
i saw him...
but i act not see him...
then i go away...
go the wrong way...
my brother just bhind me...=.=
then go back with him...
i see that he is looking at me...
my stomach so pain...
but i still acting normal...
@@

Then he msg me start cold again...
i am sorry to my body...
i use beer drunk myself again...
i can't sleep...
2moro gt work...
i need drunk myself...
smoke is nice?
why many people moody want to smoke?
i feel want to try...
but can i?