I miss him

Today i went parkson with my friends,
then i saw him...
when after i take salary with my friends...
he is with 2 guys...
he look happy...

I want go though him to say hai,
but i not dare...
i don't know what hapen to me...
Then after that they go for eat at mdl,
my friends also want go there...
I tell my friend say i want change lenc,
cause my eye so pain...
But actruely is i feel want cry...
i'm so sad..
that is the place that he break with me...
i hate parkson...
but infront of my friends...
i must act strong...
i know i can...
So i go in toilet with 1 of my friends,
change my lenc...

Then go out again...
i don't know how to explain my feeling...
i just know...
I hope can be with him again...
But time can't turn back...

Then after he go,
i want msg him...
but i not dare again...
i wait for he msg me...
But so sad,he don't...
so when around 8.40 i back home,
i gave him a msg...
Find a topik to chat with him...
That's a lame topik that : how is ur law test?
Haiz...
I really don't know what i can do ler...
But i am happy he ask me why dn cai him...
but i want just i don't dare...
but he say he want say hai to me d,
but i no look at him...
Sorry...
but he say nvm jor...

I am happy he care that,
but i know that just a best friend do d thing...
but i still happy...

Why i must be like this?
i know i should stop...
Seriously i need time to calm down...
but how long?
T________________T
I want him,
want him to beside me...
call me dear,
take care me...
I know everything is impposiible...
but who can teach me what can i do?
So hope,
i can change my life...